Erotisicsm

I am one of those girls with little to no experience in the ways of love. My first genuine experience occurred when I was eighteen, with a person that I eventually married. Well, that certainly didn't pan out. Why put this out on the net? Lol my theory is, why not? Hell, this world is so full of mythos and imbalance, why not pop in a little truth every now and then?
So anyway, before I turned 18, you would be amazed at how little I knew my own body! I was told that good girls didn't do things like that, good girls didn't have sex, and certainly didn't want it. However, it is my experience that everyone at some point, has questions, and are at least curious.
Writing erotic is a talent I find, not easily forth coming. I began a few years back, rpg style, and started to incorporate them into various short stories (best left buried, deeply) Its amazing that when I finally started to truly write erotic, it was pure lesbian.
I caution people to listen to the songs of their hearts, do not bury your feelings under thick veils of fear and concern. Perhaps had I had the support I needed as a teenager, I may have discovered my true desires, and saved myself alot of unnecessary grief.
I have not found a textbook on writing erotic. I suppose at first I emulated what I read, then I ventured into exploring my own innermost thoughts and turning them onto the screen. This isn't an easy feat, I had to dig deep, since I had no experience to draw on. I still have a long way to go, but I suppose my best advice I can give is, take pointers wherever you can get them, don't be afraid to tap into your own fantasy, and if you are anything like me and while writing these scenes you've been known to look over your shoulder to see if anyone is looking.. .LET GO. Just let go, and let it flow. If you are tense and concerned, the tone of the writing will seem tense and concerned.
I've read some beautiful scenes, the ones I found most beautiful weren't so flowery, as they were honest and thoughtful, and merely expressed that person's thrill of the moment. Capture the moment, enjoy the ride. We all should.
Some Indians believe that sex is a divine gift, given to us mortals from the heavens. I think I'd prefer to think of it this way, other than just as a way to procreate. Not all of us are breeders. I am certainly not!

Love,
Orhea, the dreamer.