Ah, its like drawing blood!

Truly! I don't know why it is being so hard to forward in the plot. Honestly, weeks, and I've only got ONE page. One..
I really need some motivation, so I'm going to write with my ink and quill.. Sometimes the romanticism of having to dip the pen in ink inspires me to write flowery words. Perhaps I'll insert poetry later.

The pen is not heavy in the hand!

The pen is not
the pen is not
the pen is NOT heavy in the hand!
Or so.. I keep telling myself this as I try to conceive what I wish to put on the page. It is certainly not flowing tonight/this morning. In fact, it is anything but flowing.
-sigh-
Trick tricky, the genre.. I never thought I'd ever write anything contemporary. I prefer fantasy and Mythos.. however, the story found me in a dream and expounded.. I just need to recapture that dream..
Recapture the feeling
Ahh...
Here is hoping!

Erotisicsm

I am one of those girls with little to no experience in the ways of love. My first genuine experience occurred when I was eighteen, with a person that I eventually married. Well, that certainly didn't pan out. Why put this out on the net? Lol my theory is, why not? Hell, this world is so full of mythos and imbalance, why not pop in a little truth every now and then?
So anyway, before I turned 18, you would be amazed at how little I knew my own body! I was told that good girls didn't do things like that, good girls didn't have sex, and certainly didn't want it. However, it is my experience that everyone at some point, has questions, and are at least curious.
Writing erotic is a talent I find, not easily forth coming. I began a few years back, rpg style, and started to incorporate them into various short stories (best left buried, deeply) Its amazing that when I finally started to truly write erotic, it was pure lesbian.
I caution people to listen to the songs of their hearts, do not bury your feelings under thick veils of fear and concern. Perhaps had I had the support I needed as a teenager, I may have discovered my true desires, and saved myself alot of unnecessary grief.
I have not found a textbook on writing erotic. I suppose at first I emulated what I read, then I ventured into exploring my own innermost thoughts and turning them onto the screen. This isn't an easy feat, I had to dig deep, since I had no experience to draw on. I still have a long way to go, but I suppose my best advice I can give is, take pointers wherever you can get them, don't be afraid to tap into your own fantasy, and if you are anything like me and while writing these scenes you've been known to look over your shoulder to see if anyone is looking.. .LET GO. Just let go, and let it flow. If you are tense and concerned, the tone of the writing will seem tense and concerned.
I've read some beautiful scenes, the ones I found most beautiful weren't so flowery, as they were honest and thoughtful, and merely expressed that person's thrill of the moment. Capture the moment, enjoy the ride. We all should.
Some Indians believe that sex is a divine gift, given to us mortals from the heavens. I think I'd prefer to think of it this way, other than just as a way to procreate. Not all of us are breeders. I am certainly not!

Love,
Orhea, the dreamer.

Go go go!

Go go gadget legs!
I wish I could say that, sadly, this isn't the case. -smirk- Nope, I have normal legs that tend to trip over themselves for odd reasons.. Yes, I'm accident prone.
Enough of that, I thought I'd do a little update. Sooooo.. I managed to write a few sentences. Actually, a week or two ago I wrote a chunk of a chapter before finals came and swept my time away. I plan on getting more written tonight.
As far as personally, I decided to kick up my exercise regime over the summer and speed walk for about an hour a day, on top of my yoga. One thing I want to make clear, just because I am multiracial, this does NOT guarantee me instant defense against the sun! I don't know why I keep forgetting that. Perhaps its because my siblings are darker and usually don't burn. -sigh- I had to borrow from my german/scotts ancestry and get burned. Honestly, the day was breezy, sunny, and not at all that hot.. Anyhoo.. I got some lovely spray on sunblock, waterproof in case I sweat. This burning stuff will not happen again! Don't you just hate it? That off, tingling sensation that happens after the burn? It just gets worse and worse untill you fall asleep and wake up to dry skin. I just know I'm going to end up with more freckles...
I got cat called twice during my walk. If you don't know what that is, I'll explain.. You know what its like when you're walking down a street and someone holler's something out of their car or whistles at you? Well, I was whistled at..
I suppose I should be flattered, but really. -sigh-

Alright, think thats all to report, expect to see more up this summer. I am also going to my first pride! Huzzah!

Finals

Writing has been.. limited at best. I've put in a bit here and there. Ah, it kills me that I haven't gotten a solid chapter!
However, after this week I plan on really cranking down.. Yeah, this is finals week, test after test to make sure we actually learned from the classes we paid for. I remind myself that I need to do my absolute best. This is after all, my life, the chance at freedom and happiness.
It has been raining quite a bit. Ah, glorious spring, this is my season!
I don't have much else for today, just thought I'd put in a bit of an update.
Happy May day, well, belated, hee!